Emotional discontent…

Have you ever had the feeling that something was not right? A feeling in the pit of your stomach that aches and you are not sure why? Your mind and body seem distant and foreign? And again you don’t know why.

I didn’t sleep well last night. Tossing and turning… getting up and down… hot and then cold… it was just a bad night. On top of everything I had a headache that would not go away. Something is not right and it started last night.

I have so much happening in my life right now. Work is crazy busy with deadlines buzzing around my head. Socially my life has never been better and I would much rather ditch my responsibilities to go have fun. Financially I really need to get on top of things. I have been spending too much and its going to catch up with me soon… time for a budget. My family life is super chaotic because my sister is pregnant and due in October, but it is not that simple… she might go into labor any day now due to complications. September… one word… CRAZY… I have oral surgery… my sister’s baby shower… a wedding… a major dinner event… and my dad’s 50th birthday party… all in one month!!!

So are these anxious feelings normal for what all I have going on in my life. Will my life ever slow down and be “normal” again. For as long as I can remember my life has been chaotic like this… if it isn’t work… its school… if it isn’t school… its family… if it isn’t family… its my relationship at the time. There is always something… something going on… a deadline… something I have do… family or friends I need to see… cleaning, laundry, financing… ALWAYS SOMETHING!!!

The chaos in my life has not changed much over the past few months… but still something is not right. I have a bad feeling something is about to happen… and that scares me.

I am Living Single in Texas…