One Day... at a time...

This time last year I was completely miserable. I was in a dead end relationship with a man who no matter how hard I tried would never love me like I loved him. It is sad to think about it now but I was truly unhappy. And I don't know if it is because the cloudy gloomy day outside or because it is the end of the year but I can't stop thinking about how my life has changed over the past year. I guess there are some years that truly change your life forever, and this was one of those years.

Last year... December 27, 2005 I was getting ready to take a trip to San Antonio to spend New Year's Eve on the River Walk and then meet my Dad and family in Ingram to exchange Christmas. My boyfriend and I almost broke up at least three times before we took this trip together.

December 30, 2005 we fought on the ride to San Antonio, and then again in the bookstore by the restaurant we had dinner at... I even remember looking for books on what to do when you break up with someone... the steps you take to start your life again, if that wasn't a sign what was. We fought before we fell asleep that night and we continued to fight the next day. New Years Eve was somewhat of a blur... we met his family on the River Walk (he does have an awesome family despite our problems). He stayed fairly distant from me the entire time. I think he just felt sorry for me at that point... he didn't want to hurt me, but the truth was he didn't love me anymore... if he ever did.

The next day we met up with my parents... I don't think he said two words to any of them. And we then came home, if you could call it a home. He continued to party every night and we continued to fight every day. For some reason I thought the relationship was worth it, I have never been more wrong. A month later we broke up... a month later I began to heal.

I started a new job in the New Year... I met some amazing new friends who I hope will remain my friends for life (Jen and Boo)... I am honored to be apart of the Young Professionals of Midland... plus I have been selected out of 900 plus employees to be apart of the Rising Star Program for the City. My sister had a healthy beautiful baby girl in October... and I met a wonderful man... my cup truly runneth over...

So what does the New Year hold for me? I don't know... and I don't want to know. Last Year I thought I was going to turn my bad relationship around and make it work... I was not living for me, but for something broken beyond repair. The New Year is a time for people to plan out their goals and hopes for the New Year... people can't help but think they know what will happen in the New Year... but the truth is no one knows the future... we can only pray for the best. I plan on living one day at a time... enjoying every moment I am given on this earth... breathing each breath as if it were my last... or so goes the cliché... but to me it is truly how I am living my life now and how I intend on living the rest of my life...

I am HAPPY.

I am Living Single in Texas.