Is being single the definition of insanity?

In order to make a drastic change in your life it takes time, patient, and a tough skin. I say a tough skin because of what you have to endure to actually make the change. To some who might look at my life right now they might not think I have changed much over the years. I get up go to work... come home... relax... and some nights I might go for drink. And of course when I go out for a drink it is the usual places... The Bar when I just want to hang out... or The Ranch when I want to dance.

This leads to the next assumption people often make when they look at me... "So how do you actually expect to meet someone and get married if you don't change where you go out... or what you do on a day to day basis?" And I have thought about this and this is where my tough skin comes in... you people who ask this have no clue.

It is amazing to me the looks I receive or the conversation I endure when I tell someone I am SINGLE. You would think I told them that I just got out of an insane asylum. Their eyes get real big... I always get the "seriously?" question... and then comes well you should meet my friend's friend... as if they are referring me to a shrink to cure the craziness. And then that of course leads to the above statement that I need to change my routine.

Guess what people I don't want to change my routine!!! Oh I am changing, trust me I am changing everyday... and as each day passes I just closer to my goal. And when that day comes then you will be saying... damn that was a drastic change and maybe you will stop telling me change.

It is not my goal in life to settle down and have a family so why change the way I live just to find someone. I don't want to find someone. I have tried endless times to find someone... and each time I have done it in a different way... tried different things... and guess what it has never worked. If that is not a sign I don't know what is. I am happy with my routine, I don't want to change it, and I am not expecting my life to change.

A change is coming just not yet. So in the meantime I am going to go The Ranch and dance to Texas country music and enjoy my friends here in Midland... because a change is coming. And for the record I am not insane because I am single.

I am Living Single in Texas.